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02:42 pm
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Hoo-rah for Spring!
So, it's been ten-million years since I updated this, and I'm sure I wouldn't be if I had anything else to do. No offense. I like LiveJournal and all, I'm just really bad at it.
Well, I'm done with my first year of college...do I feel accomplished? In some ways, I suppose. I did excellently in my classes, but I won't brag because it's not very becoming. I made a friend, as well, so I won't be totally alone for the beginning of next year. Brandon (the friend) been keeping in touch since the summer started, and I am grateful for it (even though I've only been on summer vacation for, like, a week). Nothing like starting out sophomore year worse-off than I did freshman year. Melke asked me if I'd like to live with her and two other girls next year. I'd be in the off-campus apartments and the upside to it all is I would have my own room! I cannot describe just how much I want one. The downside is that Melke enjoys partying. While I don't have a problem with occasional craziness, I cannot afford to fall behind with school. The last thing I need are distractions. That is why I would stay with my current roommate situation. Unfortunately, living with Sara and Co. does not offer the option of my own abode. Either way I have to give something up for something else. It's all up in the air right now. I don't really want to think about it.
But hey, I got myself a new job!! Woot! I cannot tell you how excited I am for my job. I'll be waitressing at Juilleret's, and I'm hoping to be rolling in the dough! I need to get myself a new car and/or save up for Ireland/France/England next summer. I hope I don't suck -- I can totally see myself screwing up all the orders and dropping food all over the place. Cross your fingers for me. I'll still be working evenings at Spoon, so I haven't cut myself off from that part of my life yet. No worries.
Currently, I am in Boston with Dani. She's at an exam right now, which is why I decided to write this. It is so amazing being here. Seriously, if you ever have the chance to check out Boston and the surrounding area, jump on it! Mark my words, someday I will live here. I love it. It is nothing like Michigan; therefore, it is awesome! I'm riding around Cambridge picking out apartments/houses that would compliment my personality. A week here just won't be enough. Dani is taking me to The Garment District when she is done with her exam, and we are going to pile-drive our way through the mounds of clothing that costs a dollar a pound! How freaking cool is that! I am so, SO pumped about this place!
I'll try and update you more about the coolness of Cambridge/Boston tomorrow, but as for now, I need food. Hope I see you all around this summer, later!
Tessie
Current Mood:  bouncy
Current Music: "Holiday" by Green Day is totally stuck in my head
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12:07 am
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Nothin' doin' in doin' nothin'.
You get that? Because I read it and I don't really understand it myself. Oh well.
Another lazy weekend for me. Read a little, and even bothered with geology -- which is like a damn miracle because, shit, who doesn't hate geology?? Anyway, this weekend had it's interesting events. Kyle and I bought our first joint appliance...a blender. It's lovely. I know, I know, how Full House or Martha Stewart or something, right? We've decided that if we split up, I'll take the top half and he'll take the bottom...unless I later decide I want the bottom and take that instead because I always win.
But we broke in our newfound blender last night after the purchase with a little fiesta...tortillas, salsa, margaritas, and a few straight shots of tequila. Although our movie choice did not really go along with the whole "fiesta" appeal (Orange County), we enjoyed it anyway. We stayed up until six in the morning doing basically nothing but being our dumb selves, and slept in until 5 this evening. I don't really know how I did it; sleep has not been a great friend to me lately. But anyway, I would like to formally apologize to my dear Dani who have have been absent from throughout this entire weekend. In my defense, I had tried since upon wakening this evening to get on Messenger so I could talk to you, but it would not allow us to sign on until I was baking cookies and Kyle finally got through (again, I make us sound very Martha Stewart with the cookie baking, don't I?). Do not worry, my friends, we really are nothing like a 90s sitcom couple. No perfection here whatsoever. But it's fun nonetheless.
Okay, well, I'm tired as hell despite sleeping for 11 hours or what-have-you. Off to bed with me, and then back to high school tomorrow (for a "classroom observation" for my education class...). Goodnight everyone.
Tess
Current Mood:  sleepy
Current Music: Some dumb racing game for X-Box (I got to build a car, tho)
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12:13 pm
[Link] | I have not been here in a while. Too much stuff that I need to do, and too many other things clouding the way that aren't necessary...but happen anyway. Saw Dane, love, love, LOVED him! He is so funny and sexy -- gayest run in the world, but it makes him that much hotter.
Plus, I got to see Dani! That was great. Can't wait until I see here again, but also, I hope other things have improved for her. I'm no good with three hours of sleep in me. No, things have to get better for her soon.
I have just discovered that my Spring Break starts in a mere nine days. NINE DAYS!!! Holy hell!! I am not ready for Spring Break; there is just way too much stuff I have to do before I can enjoy it. Here is the sad part though...Spring Break in Boston won't really be possible. I want it to be, but my mom didn't react the way I had wanted/thought/hoped. Instead, she told me that I can go to Boston...but only once to get Dani. So either Spring Break, or when school lets out. She doesn't think my car can make the trip twice, and she's probably right. Plus I'm un-godly poor. Dane sucked up over eighty bucks, and I just got a speeding ticket for another one hundred dollars (which I maintain was not my fault). Sure I was speeding, but there was a valid reason for it. I wasn't just being crazy Tess this time and speeding because I'm a bitch. No, there was real logic behind it. But whatever. The point is that my Spring Break looks like it might instead be spent chilling in G.R. for a few days, and then up in Charlevoix eating my mother's food and getting even fatter.
I cannot concentrate on jack-shit lately. I have this 5-page paper due tomorrow on Homer's Odyssey...yeah, I have basically not started it. I began yesterday, decided on a thesis (after two weeks of thinking about it), and now I can't motivate myself to actually go anywhere with it. Christ. I can say that about all of my classes, though. I'm sure you know what I'm talking about. But I have to go meet with Danielle (not Dani, but my world politics partner -- and the only girl who who bothers talking to me) so we can divide up our 12-page paper into sections that we can each accomplish. Should be fun. Except for the whole project-thing. Anyone know shit on the Basque Terrorists? I only have vague notions. I guess I'll have to start reading up...
Okay, I'm going to go try and get something done. Love you all. Later.
Current Mood:  busy
Current Music: The Young and the Restless...Sara's fave.
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09:19 pm
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Closer to being older, but no closer to feeling it.
Eleven hours and 58 minutes from now, the Earth will align exactly where it was 19 years ago...at the time I was born. (This is an attempt to get me to care.) It seems like thinking of it like that will make it more significant, alas, I feel the same. Having a birthday on a Wednesday in college where no one knows your name doesn't really make it exciting; it makes it completely insignificant. Although, Sara gave me a card...which I hung up right next to my computer trying to make me feel it. But what is a birthday without cake? Candles? Cheesy gifts? A dinner with your family that always ends up badly? Those things are necessary to remind you of your life. Aren't they? Instead, going to class and sitting at my desk writing papers and working on a project with a girl ironically named Danielle is what I have in store for me tomorrow. There is a possibility that Kyle will come over (and bring Chris), but he needs Chris's car...since some jackass stole his license plate.
But screw birthdays. For now, at least. I'll pick it back up this weekend if and when I go up north. I'll just postpone it until the 12th. That's the plan. Until then, I'll continue with this life here, but only because I have to. I hope tomorrow is a slightly brighter day (not that today is precisely BLEAK, it's just BLAH...you know?); although, it's supposed to be fairly cold and snowy so brighter isn't really possible either. Oi vay.
Talk to you all tomorrow.
Teddie Lynn
Current Mood: Why does the tired bear cry??
Current Music: "Let's Get Retarded" by the Black Eyed Peas
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11:31 am
[Link] | I am sorry that I don't write more meaningful shite in here, really. I always try to vent, but then I think that somehow, the wrong people are going to lay their hands on it and I will have to deal with some type of confrontation. I hate confrontation. When I'm not prepared for it, at least. Because sometimes, confrontation can be very liberating...but sometimes if can just screw things up even more.
Okay, so I'm going to put this in here even though I know it will probably lead to some sort of crap that I don't want to get into. Is it okay that I have a problem with Kyle's friends being here? That's not exactly what I mean, sorry. Okay...so is it okay that I have a problem with Kyle taking his friends out to places when they're here? Wait. That's not quite right either...Is is wrong that I get pissed that he takes them out to do stuff when he has zero dollars but does not do the same curiosity with me? So we're both poor as fuck; he could offer anyway.
I guess it makes a difference that I am here all the time and they never are. He doesn't have to feel obligated to do anything special with me because he knows I'll always be around. They won't be. I mean, that was the first time anyone has bothered to come see him down here. When I asked those questions earlier, I already knew the answer...his actions are justified. But are mine? Can I be upset by it even though I know that it was justified? Or am I just upset because the world does not revolve around me?
So I'm trying to come to terms with the fact that I will be alone here once this semester is up. No Kyle, no Dani = zero friends. But they both have to do what they have to do. They can't give up their lives because I am selfish (as was previously discussed in the last paragraph). Kyle thinks that I am literally crazy (but I won't go into why). I think he is right. I got fucked up at birth. My parents made me this way. They made all three of us that way. My brother's problems are just much more easily seen on the surface. My problems (and Kacy's) lie further down...somewhere in our souls. Does anyone know if lost souls can be brought back? Maybe Winona Ryder does.
I'm gonna go hunt down some food right now so that I can feel a little better about my life...until I feel fat once I've finished. Can never win, can you?
Current Mood:  indescribable
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02:11 pm
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All for you, Darling...
Okay, so I know that I have been majorly slacking with this LJ-thing. I am sorry about that. And I would still be slacking if, in fact, Dani was not all over my ass about it. I did try and get on yesterday to put in the pics of my dad's blazer in a "ditch" of sorts (aka, off the side of our driveway). That was all thanks to my ingenious brother, and it was amazing that the car did not roll on him when he decided he should get out... But they had a crane come and lift it out and, amazingly, it appears to have no damage. That was minor excitement in my life, but I wasn't even there to witness it, so maybe not so much.
Okay, so I have a question that really none of you can answer, but I'm throwing it out here because I have no answer from myself yet. Not too long from now (the weekend after my b-day) is Cutfest. Now, last year, it was an interesting affair, and I have to say that I enjoyed myself. However, for this year's annual event, I will not have ny posse (you know, Dani, Heather B., and Eah). Nonetheless, Kyle will be there...which would actually be the primary reason I am invited anyway considering they are his friends...mine simply because of him, for the most part. So even though he would be there, so would his friends, which I would not want to deter him from. That was the whole point of me going last year, was because so were my friends. Without them there, I feel like maybe I will be the outcast, so to speak. That is why I am unsure of where on stand on the whole Going thing.
Okay Dani, for you, I will post my weekly schedule so that you will no longer have to use Sara as an answering machine...I know you feel badly about that. Here it is:
Monday: classes downtown
~Geology 100: 10-10:50am
~Education 200: 10-10:50am
-back at campus around 11:30am
Tuesday: classes on campus
~World Politics 103: 3:30-9:45am
-Breakfast after first class
~Classical Literature 201: 11:30-12:45pm
~World Civilizations 101: 1-2:15pm
Wednesday: classes downtown
~Geology 100: 10-10:50am
~Education 200: 10-10:50am
-back at campus around 11:30am
Thursday: classes on campus
~World Politics 103: 3:30-9:45am
-Breakfast after first class
~Classical Literature 201: 11:30-12:45pm
~World Civilizations 101: 1-2:15pm
-I leave for Kyle's around 3:00pm & stay the night.
Friday: classes downtown
~Geology 100: 10-10:50am
~Education 200: 10-10:50am
-I don't return to campus for the rest of the weekend because I will either be at Kyle's until Monday morning, or I will go home for the weekend and then stay at Kyle's on Sunday night, since my classes are downtown and it's faster to get there from his place than it is from Allendale.
So there you go Dani, you have my schedule. Now you will have to give me yours so we are on the same page. Now I have to pack up because I am heading off to Mr. Winstone's apartment. Either get online tonight and talk to me, or call (but then you'd have to call through Chris...and that could be dangerous, you know.). Alright everyone, I will try and keep doing this thing as much as possible (only if I do it to get Dani off my back...jk.). Later!
Tess
Current Mood:  chipper
Current Music: "Sunny Came Home" Shawn Colvin (an oldie...good times...)
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12:37 pm
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Stuck in my head.
Dani, this is your fault. Your stupid Messenger name got Nickleback stuck in my head (not that it's a bad thing). You picked the best song of them all. Since I can't get it out, I'm putting the chorus up on here so I can keep going back to it.
No I don't find faith in your false feelings,
Not through my own misleading.
Who'll buy this lie you're selling?
Tired of this lie you're telling.
I don't, I won't
No I won't do this anymore.
There is it. And I will go now. Back to the fields, I suppose.
Ted
P.S.--Yet again with the chick bear. WTF? Somebody please help me out with that.
Current Mood:  hopeful
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11:34 am
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Hopefully it stays this way...
So, this morning (for once) started out good. Not only did I have a great dream (which, sorry to say, I won't be sharing...), but then I went to geology (which I hate under normal circumstances). Here's the good news of the day (which is really great for me)...my exam was moved back from Wednesday to Friday! Woot, Woot, double WOOT! Yeah, I realize I'm a loser and that probably wasn't the most exciting news I have ever shared, but it helps to alleviate my stress level so much; I just can't tell you.
Other than that, there are no updates about my life since 1am this morning. Sorry. And I am also sorry that I said "which" three times in the last paragraph. What can you do though, right? I'll let the world (or my portion of it...i.e., you guys) know if anything slightly more life-changing or even interesting comes up.
Thank-you for listening to my unexciting babble.
Tess-Lynn
P.S. Why is there a small woman bear chillin' with my normal bear when I say I'm optimistic? What is that supposed to mean???
Current Mood: optimistic
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10:42 pm
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Do we just fall under the power of the waves? At the mercy of Posiedon?
This is not what I need to be doing what right now. What I need to be doing right now is my homework. However, there is so much of it, that I cannot find where to start or the way to getting it done. So I will sit here and try to write about something that is positive, although there really is nothing.
I suppose I could tell you that I got my hair cut, but it's nothing remotely drastic, so there's not much to say. An inch shorter, with minor layers, but I think I'm going to color it on Feb. 19th. That just sounds like something I need to do. I don't know what color. I'll just go and be like, "that one." So, that sounds like fun. But we'll see. It will most likely turn out for the worst just like everything else. Sorry I'm not more cheerful; I shall try harder.
So, I'm going to Dane Cook. Which you all know already, but it's the only light at the end of this god-forsaken tunnel. The never-ending, dark, lonely, cold god-forsaken tunnel. Okay, so I didn't make it any more cheerful. It's because I suck. Ah well. God, I really am sorry to anyone who reads this. I should stop now while I'm ahead (or at least, before I fall further behind).
Okay, so I watched "Hide and Seek" with my sister and Kyle on Friday. It was okay; not scary like I wanted, but not horrible. The best part was a crazy man in the theatre, though. There was a group of about twenty eighth graders in the back corner of the theatre. And, I mean, what can you expect from a group of twenty eighth graders watching a "scary" movie? Of course they're going to scream at the loud parts! But really, they weren't bad. No talking in between scenes or obnoxious screaming or throwing things at each other...they were fine. However, when there was about 7 minutes left in the movie, the guy directly in front of Kyle gets up (we think to go to the bathroom or what have you). He comes back a minute later and out of nowhere starts screaming at the children. "Get the fuck out of here you little shits! You have no goddamn respect!...etc, etc." Then another lady from the same row as him (the row right in front of us) started clapping...it was gay. The kids just sat there, like, "what the fuck, man?" He sat down and Soupy was like, "I hope you kids are happy with yourself." And then he walked out. This father (who was sitting next to Kacy) gets up, and is like, "I'm not letting my daughter be any part of this." Then he makes her get up and leave in front of all of her friends when there's five minutes left in the damn movie! When the crazy man sat down, I turned to Kyle and was like, "That was a little unnecessary." So Kyle, being himself, said loudly so the man would clearly hear, "Yeah, that was a little unnecessary. They're just kids." The guy turned around and said something to him, but Kyle was like, "Turn around and watch the movie." It was great! The guy got all pissed and left before the movie finished. It made me so happy. Especially since all of the drama took place directly in front of me...it was like watching another movie (a better one).
So that was the highlight of my weekend. Other than that, nothing great. So I'll go now. Night to all! (That story put me in a little better mood, I'm not as bad as I was when I started. Other people's stupidity is good in that way.)
Teddie
Current Mood:  cynical
Current Music: "Going Under" Evanescence
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12:00 am
[Link] | I have to tell you, I am so happy to have someone actually take me in as there friend on this whole LJ-thing. So, Dennis and Michelle, thank-you. You rock my cock (or you would if I did...you know what I mean). Dani doesn't count because she created this account and forced me to write in it. And Kyle doesn't count because he only checks this via my account...to make sure he isn't missing out on things. So my first friends...it feels good. Who knows, maybe others will follow suit.
No real new developments; I am going home and taking Melke with me on Friday, and then I am promptly getting my hair cut because it is in desperate need of it. I know, however, that this will lead to some disaster and I will regret it forever. You can start calling me Butch now, ladies and gentlemen. Hairdresser + Me = Tears. But I have to do it sometime. I don't want to be the same Tess I was at 12. No sir. Although sometimes it would be nice to go back for a bit and just chill, but do it without the hair. These days, there is no longer time for chilling. Except for all of those moments that I choose to let myself fall behind a little further by sleeping, going to Kyle's, or doing what I'm doing now. Oh well. Things will work themselves out. Or I will flunk out of college (my parents would LOVE that). This is enough babbling for tonight. I'll start again tomorrow if you can stand it.
Love to those few who know me...TessLynn
Current Mood:  rushed
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